Coin (Part 2)

Author's note: The usage of metaphors is frequent on this article. While feedback has been given to me to simplify my usage of the English Language, I am trying to keep my articles as simple as I can to the best of my ability.

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The third side to a coin:

Can you guess where does the third side of a coin resides ?

If you guessed that it's third side resides on its edge, you're right.

Some men, attempt to "balance" themselves, to be a perfect blend of who they really are, and the person that they have become. In metaphorical terms, to expose both sides of the coin.



For some men, it is an easy feat doing this. Being true to his own personality and at the same time, fulfilling the demands of what the people around him require of him as a man. I believe that there are a lot of popular contemporary fictional heroes who are like that, or at least try to maintain that supposed balance. Like James Bond, whose calculative, deviant charm can only be resisted by the likes of his Superior: M, who reads him like a open book. Most of the time, James balances himself without much difficulty.

Of course, there is a modestly large number of men, who attempt to be like that. It isn't easy. Often, we would fail this "balancing act", wondering why we could not do it with ease.

Personally, i have naturally attempt this "balancing act" myself.

I'll speak from my own experiences on my personal attempts, whether if you think i have achieved success or failure (or even make relevant, common sense) is entirely up to you.

I find that attempting to stay in my own "balancing act", places me on a very vulnerable state. Bear with me as i explain a little further.

One side of the coin would weigh much more than the other (My real self would come into conflict with the person i became), and i do find myself caught off balance occasionally, while trying to stay "balanced". And frankly speaking, that isn't something you want others to witness. People would think that you're being somebody that you're not and that can be quite damaging to how people would perceive you as a person.

The most difficult part of this "balancing act" is that, once you really stumble over to fall flat, it is much more challenging to get up and attempt the "balancing act" once more. It really takes a determined, thick skinned, resilient, die-hard man to pick himself up from failure to once again, give it one more try.

Ultimately, the worst undesirable consequence is this........................ because I'm trying maintaining that "balancing act", i know that some of my flaws, incapability and perhaps, my own personal dark secrets would be exposed. And to men like myself, that is unthinkable. It is too painful to let it reside even for a moment in my mind.

Because of our fear of this, we do fight an inner battle to deal with our skeletons in our closet. Because to stay "balanced on the third side of the coin" is to be the best that we can be, when we keep on our toes and be aware of ourselves. Because, if we manage to succeed once.......... after so many failures, we'll naturally carry ourselves well. And we would like our "significant other", no matter who she is, to be proud of that.

Conclusion:

To sum it all up, from my first part and second part of the article, Coin: There are many different sides to a man, we also have our way of being complicated....... to also really discern the person that we really are inside........ to figure out how are we going to deal with ourselves........ to try to reconcile the person that we really are, with the person that we have become, and grow into a different man from that point onwards.

That is the one part of our lives, when we really wish that we were alone to fix ourselves to perfection. This really is one of those moments in a man's life where he is totally vulnerable.

We do not expect you to perfectly understand what we go through, or feel the way we feel, but if you happen to truly, sincerely want to break into our self imposed lonely contemplation and provide emotional reassurance, sincere understanding and unconditional acceptance of who we are, we'll love you a whole lot more for that very thing you've chose to do for us. (Of course, be a little gentle when you do approach us...... it helps a lot to soften us up to let you "in our world".)